I guess I should apologise for all I’ve said and done / and did do / I guess this is how I’ll make it up to you / I guess I should start by telling the truth / even though I never told it to you / I’m still ashamed of that fact / and I’m selfish in that / I didn’t want to watch the blame stack / too high / up on my side / When I saw you calling / I knew the ship was sinking / I gathered / you gathered my things / ready for leaving / my response went through stages of grief and loss / as if the captain of the vessel was Kubler-Ross / first step was / deny everything at all costs / I didn’t want to lose / what had left to be tossed / out into the depths / just to be swallowed by all who could see / I got this pain in my chest / I wonder when it will leave / As my voice rose and lifted / anger came out / aimed at the victim / no benefit in the doubt / it’s evident to me now / I’m a degenerate with a big mouth / my arrogance / extravagant / your elegance / effortless / the evidence for my defense not relevant / had the jury stacked / to the point that they’re yelling it / execution through emancipation / this mans a vagrant / this man has no place in / your life! / so don’t give him the time / just kick him out and say good bye /


this just might be the best thing you ever did / not for me / but for you / cause I’m a prick / I’m very dramatic / its easy to tell / on our way to find love i dragged us through hell / you held the wheel sailed the storm no matter the swell / told me it would be alright all would be well / I’d get better and soon enough I’d be back to my old self / well… that was it / I went straight back to my old self / You walking away caused both of us pain / each step i take is a walk of shame / when i see our old friends again i hang my head hide my face like I’m the one walking through rain / I wish i could take it back to the glory days / the best i can do is set the story straight / I want to blame that medication i was taking / the cocktail created someone different not adan / i felt dead inside / for a extended length of time / the truth is it was you who got me through the darkest of knights / holding my hand every single time / and if you asked my family they'd say those drugs saved mine /

but it was you /

not the srri's / keeping me left and right / keeping me balanced / all down inside felt like a zombie / this is my way to apologise /